Fickle

Hi, my name is Aliza Akram, and I’m a 21-year-old LLB graduate who does not want to practice law.

Yes, you read that right. Everyone around me seems to believe that if you do LLB (Hons), you must get licensed and practice. But guess what? I don’t want to. And that’s okay.

Since graduating in June 2025, I’ve been figuring out what I really want from life. Some days, I feel like I’m just rotting in bed, doing nothing — but in truth, I’ve been rebuilding myself.

Back in May 2025, I borrowed some money from my parents to start a blog, promising I’d pay them back in six months — by 12 November 2025. I genuinely believed I could make it work. And maybe I still can.
My birthday is on 9 November, and I thought I’d be working as a Compliance Analyst by then. Spoiler: I’m not… yet. But I’m still trying — slowly, imperfectly, but wholeheartedly.

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🌸 The Story of Fickle

The name Fickle comes from a personality test I took on 2 May 2020, which described me as whimsical. The word “whimsical” didn’t sound quite right to me, so I searched for synonyms — and found fickle. That’s how Fickle was born on 5 May 2020 — the day I decided to start something that felt truly mine.

Back then, I had a small Instagram community of 26.7K followers, and it was one of the best experiences of my life. But when I started university in 2022, I shut everything down. I was scared — scared of judgment, of being “too different,” and of being seen. Looking back, I think I was just insecure, a teenager trying to fit into a world that didn’t understand her.

Now that I’ve graduated, I’m ready to reclaim what LLB took from me: my voice.

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 What This Blog Is About

Fickle is a space for all the parts of me — and maybe, the parts of you too.

I write about:
🍳 Cooking — real recipes I’ve tried, tasted, and photographed myself.
📚 Books and dark romance — my favorite obsession.
💭 Mental health and healing — because I’ve struggled, learned, and grown.
⚖️ Life after LLB — for everyone who’s told they have to follow one path.
🌙 Weight loss — my honest journey with Ozempic (I was 92 kg during my second year of LLB, and it’s been a process of rediscovering myself).

This is not a niche blog — it’s my heart in digital form.

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🌷 My Purpose

I’m not here just to make money, though yes — if you see ads, or buy from my Gumroad, that supports me.
What I really want is a safe space — for people like me, who are still finding their way, who’ve been judged for changing directions, and who are learning to be okay with uncertainty.

I’m Muslim, and this is an inclusive space for everyone — no hate, no Islamophobia, no judgment. Just honesty, growth, and a little chaos.

Tomorrow, I have a job interview — maybe it’ll go well, maybe not. Either way, I’ll write about it. Because that’s what Fickle is: a reflection of my journey, in all its messy beauty.

So, welcome to my world.
Welcome to Fickle.